ups and downs — down

I knew the crash would come. It always does shortly after my brain speeds up. After that, it shots down. But I promised myself I would also write about that.

It is hard for me to express how I really feel right now. Miserable for sure. Worthless. But mostly I just done feel. I’m shut down completely.

They tell me that depression often lead to suicide. I don’t see how. I can’t even get out of bed and can only write this because my phone is next to my bed. Suicide would take way too much effort.